Love/Hate Relationship

I have a strong love/hate relationship with working. When I don't have a job, I find myself bored out of my mind, wishing I had a job so I could go shop and buy all the cute things I find (as a result of having too much time on my hands). The days seem to drag by slowly, and I feel like I'm wasting the day by sleeping in too late, spending too much money, and counting down the hours until Joe gets home.

When I actually get a job, it's a complete 180 and I am SO busy that I hate not having any free time! Sure, I love the extra money for shopping, but because I am working so much, I hardly have any time to do any!!! Not even just that, but really hardly any time for anything at all. It seems the house is constantly in need of major cleaning, the dogs are depressed from being "alone" all day (even though Joe usually comes home during lunch), I don't have time to keep up with half my resolutions (blogging, sewing and playing with my camera have taken a backseat).

Subbing has been amazing and I thoroughly enjoy it! I've met some great teachers (I love to observe other teachers and learn new techniques and ideas for the classroom) and connections. It's a great job because I love being in the classroom and honestly, my day flies by soooo quickly! I'm still tutoring after school. This means, the days I sub (which has been everyday for the last month, and usually several times a week if I accept the offer for the day) I come home from subbing and tutor until 5:30 or 6:30 in the evening, depending on the day. I work, tutor, come home for dinner (Joe's been great and having dinner ready for those days I don't get home until late!), un-wind and watch a bit of TV, take a shower and get ready for bed. Oh, and of course the weekends go by WAY too fast!

My question is, will the cycle ever end? Why can't there be a happy medium?